Seeing and Serving

I (Kari) had knee surgery a week and a half ago.  It seems that anytime I am injured or restricted physically God begins work on my heart.  Although its not my favorite way that He chooses to work in my life, its the best way to capture my attention.  And its good for my heart.  I am in constant need for heart work.  My heart so easily wanders.  And let's just be honest, all the popular sayings about "following your heart" and "listening to your heart" are really just a bunch of crap.  Jeremiah 17:9 says, "The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately sick; who can understand it?"  I am thankful that God has given me a new heart!  But I digress... (And I said crap.)

I am learning a lot of things.  This post is just about 2 of them; seeing and serving.  God did not give me the gift of mercy.  Let me say that again in case you didn't catch it.  God did not give me the gift of mercy.  I am terrible at seeing others needs and serving them.  But in His providence Abraham took an internship at Kossuth Street Baptist Church in the fall of 2010 and I have been learning about serving ever since.  The college students in our ministry love and serve people like I have never seen on a college campus.  I am amazed by it!  Little by little I have taken note of this fact.

Now I have surgery, get the IV, the gas mask, start counting and... wake up with a HUGE brace on my leg.  Contrary to the doctors previous assessment I will now be on crutches for 4 weeks!  (Did I mention I have a 22 month old?  details, details)  I need a lot of help. (Oh and Abraham is in finals of a seminary semester.  And Purdue just started today.  He is the campus director.)  We need a lot of help.   And I am amazed at how much help has come.  I mean, without even asking for it help.  Above and beyond help.  From people I don't even know well help.  Meals.  Desserts.  Babysitting.  Meals.  Rides.  Laundry.  Dishes. Bathroom Cleaning.  Someone even bought one of those suction cup grab bars for my shower!  

I am learning that there are people all around me that are good at seeing needs and serving.  I want to be one of those people.  I want God to give me a heart that loves people enough to look for how I can serve them.  We all need a little help sometimes.  We all need a lot of help sometimes.  I pray that God will open my eyes to the needs around me and then give me the humility to set aside my schedule to help meet those needs.   Proverbs 31:20 says, "She opens her hand to the poor and reaches out her hands to the needy."  I want to use my hands like this virtuous woman does but God is in the process of changing my heart first.

Thank you to everyone that has served us during this time.  You are helping us so much physically and it is very needed.  But you are also being used by God to work on my heart!

For those that are interested, here is day 1 post-op.